As Evie's arrival gets closer, I've been thinking a lot about how life is going to change. Ryan and I will go from having 2 fairly independent kids to having a 100% dependent newborn. We are 3 yrs out from this newborn thing and it all seems so new again. When Maggie came along, Trent was still a baby so we were still in the swing of things. I don't know how people spread their kids out more than this… that's for sure.
However, I've really been thinking a lot about how things are going to change between me and Mags. I am the only girl in my family. So it's always been just me and my mom for all of the girl stuff. I like it that way. There is no added drama… because let's face it, girls. We are DRAMATIC! I've really gotten used to it being me and Maggie Jane. Ryan and Trent do their guy thing and we do our girl thing. She and I have a very special bond that I don't think can ever exist between me and another human. We've been through a lot together. I've held her through countless medical procedures and we've talked and giggled and just snuggled. We do our thing… and we're pretty good at it! She's my baby girl and I don't want that to change.
That picture says it all. I could hold that girl forever and not grow weary. She is my joy and my sunshine. I'm not sure how our relationship will change, but I am sure it will. I am certain that God knew we needed another girl in this family or he wouldn't have given us one. So, I am anxious to see how she will fit in to our family. I am also anxious to see how amazing Maggie will be with her new little sister.
Because, this picture shows just how excited she is to be the big sis! Evangeline will have a wonderful example to follow and I know we will all fit together just fine. However, life as we know it is about to change, and if you know me at all, I'm not a huge fan of change.
I absolutely love that picture of you and Maggie. What a treasure.
I totally related to this post. In fact, it brought me to tears. You and I sound so much alike…maybe we’ll someday meet and find out we were long lost twins or something- I’m the only girl in my family too and my mom and I are best friends as well. I too, have loved being the only girl so I know EXACTLY how you feel! I’ve said these same words before, worrying about how I’ll feel when I someday have another child and if this baby was a girl, would I feel the same as I do with my relationship with Maddie. Of course I’d love for Maddie to have a sister because I never had one nor did my mom and we both agree it would be especially nice when you’re older to have one. There are many days I so wished I had a sister who could relate to our family dramas and love me for being me, etc. So, I’m anxious for you and agree that God knows what He’s doing here. Maggie is a dear little girl and I’m sure will nurture her baby sister in every way. She’s precious and I love that last picture of her…she looks so proud to become a big sister. Good for her 🙂 and I’m looking forward to the arrival of Evangeline!
BTW…two other heart mom friends of ours are expecting around the same time as you…Teagan’s and Mia’s mom’s (on our sidebar). And our cardiologist is having her baby boy today! Wow…it must be spring! My best to you Faith 🙂
Katie, I am thrilled that Maggie gets to have a sister because there were definitely times that I really wanted one. She will be an amazing big sister. I babysat a friends’ 18 month old the other day and Mags was so sweet with her.
In the back of my mind I’ve always wondered if Maggie will be jealous that her sister will be able to do things that she can’t… sports and such. I know that is all out of my control and God has a plan. I’d just like to fix it now if I could!
I know that in a year, I’ll look back and think, “how silly” and that it will seem like Evangeline was always a part of our family.
Thanks for the encouragement and understanding!
Faith, I just ADORE the family photos you had taken – so so precious!
What a change it will indeed be! I get it really! Have thought about wanting another baby and still grieving in a way that that would mean Evie was no longer the “baby”. This will be a good thing though. Certainly God’s prefect plan and blessed gift – a welcome change! PRaying for the dynamics as you adjust. Loving you and counting down too:-)